paperplanes

i miss the 3 stooges on the lefttt,haha

hey i just spent my whole day with sakinah,now i’m blogging at 2 a.m. our intention was to do pom-pom but it ended up looking like -..- and sakinah gave up ,watched a little thing called love and it was daaaaammmmmmmn great 

look at this guy ,he’s so adorable, baik pulak tu. after all this film is suitable for those who’s a loner, and want their life to turn out like in this film, k i’m talking about myself.a confession : i want to meet guy who’s so kind and handsome when i study abroad,and love me for who i am, and a good listener and could make me smile even when i don’t want to and then he’ll marry me and he would be my first and last love because i never get into a relationship, the end, ok bye. i hope that someday it will happen, ok bye, i hope no one would read this. and then we swam in the pool and rode a crocodile float, haha, fell a few times, and we sang a lot. went to shah alam mall and bumped into sakinah’s friend, qistina, she used to study at mrsmkk and she said that mrsmkk was great and she want to go back there, and other things like mrsmkk is oh-so-great. and i’m staying there each day, can’t even cope myself with it. i honestly want to get out from there, and sakinah said on next sem ada byk budak yang keluar seri puteri, or should i say seseri, nak ikuttt keluar jugakkkkk. tp dkt mrsm sorang pun takde, so if i go out,it would be only me. no i know i have to stay there, but sometimes my heart just don’t belong there, but my heart could be wrong, wtv. taknak balikkkkk nak cuti seminggu lagiiii :’( i want to run away from there. the words that touched me the most when i want to go out was zeyra’s ,she said ” kau lah anak last yang parents kau nak tengok dpt semua ni ” it’s true, but apa guna kalau belajar kat sana pun mcm apa, kalau nk belajar pun takde mood,  apa guna nama budak mrsm tapi tk pandai mana pun, baju pun basuh sendiri ,tiba-tiba, i’m not staying here for nak dapat nama, but it’s the matter of future, tapi mrsm pun tk guarantee dpt scholarship semua kan, ada je byk yang tak dpt, it’s the matter of luck. i’m staying here, and yes this is the chance, this is my luck that i see for now, but will it be it for the next two years. when i was in ssaas i never countdown how long till i get out from school,but in boarding school,i keep reminding myself , 5 months and a year more. maybe it’s just the changes in life that i can’t face for now. i hope that i’ll be okay and love mrsm just as much as i love ssaas. maybe i should stay outside my house for one night in between the trees, and kena gigit nyamuk banyak-banyak, dpt demam denggi lps tu tk pyh balik mrsm.kita tak nak pergi sanaaaaa :’( kita nak balik sini,belajar sini, ada tuition, ada shah alam, hari-hari boleh keluar, boleh pakai internet. nak belajar oversea cpt-cpt,mcm dpt,insha allah. nak keluar sekolah cepat-cepat. have you ever heard this song ‘mara!perkasa, menjunjung amanah rakyatttt!!!!!!!!!’ it’s the only line that i remember for now, the reason why i talk too much is because it’s 3 in the morning, and uh,and uh, louis is so cute. p’shone ka, comel kot. k i should sleep, advice to-self ,don’t be afraid of the changes that will happen in life, just remember that this all would make you a better person one day. 

bye.